Meh

I am feeling pretty defeated today.  This is the second day I've stayed home from work this week.  I used to miss at least two days each month due to being sick but it's been a few months since I've missed any at all, but it's still very depressing.  Before, I would miss days due to IBS and vomiting, weaknesses etc.  I contribute it to high blood sugars and poor diet.  Since my change in exercise and diet I've been feeling great so what the heck is going on these last two days?

I think that my blood sugar may be falling too low when I take my evening pills.  I've been waking up with seized muscles and the shakes during the night.  It's happened three times in the past two weeks.  This is not something I've ever experienced before!  I'm not snacking at night and only have my Shakeology as a usual snack. Shakeology has a great glycemic index.  I think that my prescription is based on a Ha1c level of 8 and not 5.6.  I should be checking my blood sugars better. Hmm guess I will get on that.

So, on top of the forced eating in the middle of the night just to control excessive medication-which makes me bloated and sick feeling in the morning, gives me headaches, on top of the low blood sugar situation sucking the life out of me- I haven't lost the 10 lbs I predicted during the last 8 week schedule.  I've lost about 5 lbs.  I have been burning mass calories, eating all healthy and doing everything right.  I've even been exceeding the workouts in my schedule to try and get those extra pounds off.  But no.. I'm losing it in a very slow and fluctuating way.  It's very depressing to realize that your best efforts are only making minimal difference...especially on days like today.

I was so excited to start a new routine in P90X today but now I can't even muster the energy to get out of bed and write this article.  The last two nights low blood sugar episodes have really taken their tole on me.  Yesterday I was able to make it to the gym for a 45 minute work out, then finished my hour with 15 minutes in the pool... and I did core synergistics during the day, but I had a headache the entire time and couldn't really get into it.  My heart rate was so high and my energy so low on the elliptical that I couldn't do my regular program, I just did a slow and steady quick start.

Then there's today... and I am beat.  Two nights in a row of waking up sick is more than anyone should have to endure.  I hate being diabetic.  I hate it and hate it until I hate it.  I'm cutting out the evening glyburide starting today.  Hopefully I am able to make it through the night tonight in tact and can wake up my normal energetic self. I plan to switch today's P90X schedule with tomorrow's.  Tomorrow is x stretch day.  I'm laying in bed all day- close enough.  Tomorrow I WILL wake up feeling good, I WILL go to the college gym and get my elliptical on at lunch, and I WILL do chest shoulders & triceps, then ab ripper 100 when I get home.

My son just came up to me and gave me a stone that will give me invisibility, make me grow a tail, and make me live forever.  Screw you diabetes!